Day 3

250.8 this morning. Can I count that as a pound lost? I guess we'll see.

Today was pretty normal on the food front with the exception of dinner. I had a salad from Woodranch tonight and while I did the best I could while eating it (not too much dressing, avoiding cheese clusters, not eating all of the fried onions on top), I probably set myself back tonight. I was trying to go for "not necessarily sticking to diet tonight but doing my best to not go overboard" idea. I'll probably have gained weight in the morning. I guess I just need to be really good tomorrow. I'm not going to slide back. So many times I have said I will lose weight and I haven't. But I'm not going to flake this time. I'm going to lose the weight and then sleep with my hot Krav Maga instructor!

...or something less embarrassing to that effect.

Y'know, that would be a bad thing to publish if anyone actually ever read this. And if you stumble upon this, well, enjoy!

Alright, the menu for today:

Breakfast:

2 cups coffee with creamer (one was during the middle of the day when I forgot one of my snacks)
1 1/4 cup Honey Bunches of Oats
Yoplait Light Yogurt

Lunch:

Large salad with low-fat vinagrette dressing, cucumbers, and tomatos
Open-face roast beef sandwich with avocado

Dinner:

Woodranch Seared Prime Steak Salad (super delicious and more than likely super caloric)

Snacks:
Fiber One Bar
1 100 calorie pack of Cheezits
1 100 calorie pudding

I'm forever trying to find the balance between sticking to my diet and being naughty occasionally. I really tried hard tonight to be good (yes, I did). But, if I screwed up, then I'll make up for it by being extra good tomorrow. I'm really serious about losing weight.

I'll probably gain weight tomorrow because of the salad and the fact that I didn't go to Krav tonight. I'm going tomorrow morning, so hopefully I won't be huffing and puffing as the one fat kid in that class.

I have to stop referring to myself as a fat kid. I've joked about it for so long that I think it's just carved into my subconscious. No longer. I will not be a fat kid. I will fucking lose this weight!

*insert encouragement here*

(my sarcasm warms my heart)